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Today I had my eyes checked and I'm glad my sight hasn't got any worse and that's good cause I don't see very well and hopefully I won't get blind. :P
After  the check I had a nice cup of coffe and a big sandwich at the coffeshop called " Skafferiet "  with the snooklover.
We also went to some shops and wow I got a new dress! I am the kind of person who usually don't wear dresses but I've decided to become more feminin and show off my gorgeus body haha. It's time to like my body as it is and become more confident. I'm at the point where I'm so tired of the old me and now I feel that I'm starting to find out who I am. Before, I've had a very hard time listening to myself and what I think about things. I remember one time when I tried to find a nice handbag and I couldn't stop myself from thinking what people would say about it. Why would others opinion be more important compared to my own?

After som shopping me and the snooklover went out for a ride and we passed the beautiful ocean and the sunshine reflected on the waves. What a sight. Inside the car the swedish hiphop music was pumping!

I was just wondering if anyone is reading my blogg... Because if anyone IS reading it there would be some comments. I think. I know you don't have to comment a blogg just because you're reading it. What I'm trying to say is that you don't have to be afraid to comment.
To me I think having a blogg is a great opportunity to get your thoughts out and you feel much better when you've wrote it down. It's easier to let go and release all the million thought's that are spinning in my head..

So remember, if you have any thought's about what I'm writing about here, don't hesitate to somment. It doesnt matter if you don't agree.

Imorgon har jag en härlig ledig dag framför mig! Jag ska verkligen slappa så mycket jag kan da. Jag hoppas att det blir fint väder så man kan ligga lite i solen. Det finns inget som gör mig så avkopplad som att vara i naturen och känna solens värmande strålar. Synd bara att sommaren tar slut och förvandlas till en dyster omgivning. Men man ska inte deppa för det. Nej man ska hitta på annat skoj som att se på film och fika och kanske ta en promenad då och då. Så länge man umgås med trevliga människor blir livet en lek. Man behöver inte tänka på att man ska jobba, man behöver inte tänka på allt skit som händer. Nej man ska se det som inte ar förjävligt och vara positiv även om man kanske egentligen har ont här eller där eller känner sig jävligt ful en dag. Det är ingen som vill höra det. Jag vet själv att om man låtsas att allt e bra så blir man automatiskt lite gladare. Allt blir lite lättare..  Livet blir vad man gör det till.

Jag kan garantera att tiden rinner ivag nar man jobbar.. Ja jag vet nu skriver jag pa svenska men som ni ser har jag inte de sista bokstaverna i alfabetet pa min data darav anledningen till att jag brukar skriva pa engelska... Darfor andrar jag till engelska for annars blir jag bara irriterad hehe...

I woke up at six this morning and whoops the time is already 14.30 in the afternoon! It feels like time goes much faster at 23 yrs of age then it does at 10 yrs of age. Well,well.

I'm meeting the girls tonight and we're going to dance! Summers is almost over and I'm starting to panic. Now when I'm so happy to see the sun and feel the warmth i will have to accept the fact that fall will be here any time soon. And after that, the horrible winter is coming back to bring me down. How I wish to be somewhere else when that time comes.
I can deal with fall because it's a cosy time and I can wear big comfy sweaters wich I love.  But when the snow and ice comes I dont have a choice but to stay inside all day long except when I have to go to work or the store..
I don't wanna complaint too much and I try to be grateful for my life and everything that I've got. There are people all around the world that has got a way worse living than I do.

What was I writing about?? Oh yeah, I'm meeting the girls and by the girls I mean Bea and Ziza. What would I do without you two? Now when my sister's moved  to Texas. You always have the time to meet me even if you've got a whole lot to do. Thanks for that. And I don't mean you HAVE to see me but I feel That I have somebody to talk to and who is there for me.
Life can be so good when you start to appreciate things more.

It was really nice to sleep til' I woke up this morning without feeling I had to do something. Well I decided with my mother that I would meet her in town but that's always nice. We had a cup of coffe at the regular place, not so funky like the other places but it's alright. As long as there is coffee..
We had a good chat and I'm happy to have her as my mom. She is so strong and I can't imagine how hard it must have been for her when dad died and left three kids behind.. She is such a loving person and she's always supportive and I had the best childhood though we didn't have much money but money is not everything.  I don't really miss going to school because I did'nt feel like I fit in, but I'm very happy I made it through. 
After our little chat I went to the licoure store with Bea to bye something to drink before our night out. It's been a while since i went out and I'm looking forward to it. What I fear for is that the DJ I don't like at all will be DJ'ing at the club we're going to.
He is the worse! All he can play is this horrible technomusic. Sometimes when I've asked him to play some R&B he said he would but he have never played the right songs... What a great DJ! Sometimes I reconsider becoming a DJ only to show people what music is about...  Sometimes it's alright to play techno but remember  music is alot of different genres and R&B/HipHop is the perfect music to dance to in the club. It's alright if you mix but don't play music that's impossible to dance to. I just don't see how this person thinks... Enough of negativity. Sorry but I'm very serious when it comes to music. I'm gonna have dinner now. That's what I really need before A night out.

Thank God I'm having two days off! I'm soo tired right now after a stressful day at work. These two days will be good. Tonight I'm going to play some minigolf with bea and ziza. It was such a long time ago.. Like 5 yrs or something. I remember that I'm not very good at it but that makes it all much funnier right?? I just hope that I won't be in a bad mood when I loose haha.
Bea and me have decided to Have a night out tomorrow and I'm really looking forward to it! I don't go out much because there are not many places to go to on this Island. I'm not a fan of drinking either because I don't like the feeling of being drunk. But one or two drinks is alright. As long as they taste nice... Usually when I don't work I prefer not to make any plans and just BE.
Well I hope my two days off will fulfill my expectations.

Today I was chatting with my man and I realised how much I miss him. He's been away for 7 months now wich feels like an eternity.. But I'm strong and I can wait for him.
When you really love someone you can wait a very very long time because you know you'll se his face again someday. I move on with my life and make plans for the future and he's part of my future.

Tonight I've had a great time with two of my nearest friends ( And I don't have many )! We had a delicious dinner with alot of laughters, music and a couple glasses of wine...
I have so much fun spending time with them And I know I can trust them and will keep them for the rest of my life whatever happens. I can really be myself with them and I'm not afraid to speak up my mind.
I have to say that I'm pretty careful with choosing friends because I need to feel that I can rely on them and be supported by them.
Today I'm proud of myself for not trusting everyone like I once did. I feel more confident than I've ever been thanks to them.
I know the first chapter of my blogg is kinda selfobsessed but.... I don't care anymore. I'ts time to be a little selfish.