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I really hope my man will make it to Sweden before it's too late. They have started shooting in his hometown today.. I wish they will stop. I'm so frustrated. My mobilephone just died and my internet is slow as hell. Tomorrow my internet will be back to normal but what about my phone?? I feel like laying down in a big hole somewhere until the birds start picking on me...

My man is coming in less than two weeks and I'm very excited! I haven't really realised that he's actually coming back after 10 months but I'm sure I will feel it's real in a few days.. Maybe if I pinch my arm??
Well today I'm gonna practise guitar until I feel like a pro! And after that I think I'm gonna start cleaning this dirty place..

I've realised that I've changed.. I feel more confident and I've made up my mind about what I wanna do. Mom's always told me If you want it you can do it. It's not exactly the same in Swedish but that's the closest.. Its so true!
When I want something its not so hard to make it. Will is one of the strongest qualities you can have.
As long you feel passion for something you'll do anything to get there.

The guitar is fixed and  I have everything I need to start using it! Im sooo happy!
I went out yesterday with some friends and it was nice. But I realised something in the end of the evening. I'm getting too old for this. Here on this island there are alot of childish people who haven't realised they aren't teenagers anymore. Next time I go out I will probably go to a quiet place and just talk and maybe eat something. Now I'm sure of that. Maybe if I go to another country I will consider going out to a club.

But I have to say it was nice to meet some funny people and sit down and just talk for a moment. Thank you girls!

I've got Nelly furtados new album Mi Plan and now it's time to remember what I've learned on the spanish-lessons in school.. I've heard all the songs a number of times and I understand half of it (or less). Luckilly I have a sister who can talk spanish fluently. Well, mom lived in Las Palmas when she was a kid and she's been a spanish teacher and my oldest brother is half spanish.. It's time for me to really learn. And what is a better way to learn than trough music? Since I love learning lyrics and sing to the music it won't be hard.. :D
I have a wonderful sister who teaches me and translates the lyrics I don't understand. Yesterday when we were chatting I asked her to translate to me and she asked me over and over : ask me more!
That's just great! Love you sis'!

Tonight I will babysit my wonder ful nieces, my brothers kids. Looking forward to that. Nice to be somewhere else sometimes.

Mom will perform with her choir on sunday and of course I will go and see her! There will be choires performing from all around the world. I'm so proud of her! And mom's old guitar that I will use is getting fixed tomorrow! Soon I will be able to play at home.. Really looking forward to that! Music makes me happy. And family and friends and love.

I don't even wanna think about it. It feels like I've really started to be creative. I decided to give 100% to the music. I'm gonna focus on learning and making. I will start writing soon. I have to prepare for school and I'm expecting that I'm gonna make it to school so there's no reason to wait anymore. That's what's in my head right now. Music!Music!Music!

Det blev en tidig morgon for mig. Jag behovde ringa ett samtal imorse och bestamde mig for att ga upp. Jag kunde anda inte sova plus att det var lite kallt.. Snart far man val sova i tjocktroja. Jag ar en person som latt blir frusen. Jag tror det beror pa att jag knappt har ngt underhudsfett. Men vad ska man gora nar ingenting hjalper. Jag far helt enkelt acceptera att jag ar sa smal som jag ar. Sen skiter jag i vad andra sager.. In your face!

I'll switch to english now...
I will have my second guitarlesson this evening and I'm looking forward to it! Unfortunately I missed it last week and I'm unpleased with that because I really wanna learn. But first I'm gonna visit my sweet grandma' and I will help her clean the apartment. I have no more to write right now. Have a wonderful day!!

Yesterday I went out with a good friend and we had a good time even if the music was crap as usual. We danced a little bit and it was really funny to watch people who didn't know how to move.. I feel a little sorry for them but I can't help thinking it's HILARIOUS!! lol

I can be a little mean sometimes too. And I'm saying that to you who don't know it. Some people have only seen the nice, innocent girl I can be. But you haven't seen the other part. I have feelings like everybody else. Well now I got that out of my chest.. It feels gooood.

Have you heard the song were they sing: " I know you want me, You know I want you, I know you want meeeee,You know I want you.tatatatatata Umba say...Umba say... one two three four, uno dos tres quatro....

I'm FED UP with it! I heard it last night and it's been spinning in my head like forever now!

Well i think I'm not in my best mood today. Somehow I feel angry. Well that's not strange at all. I want my BABY here with me NOW!! I just wanna scream. I also wanna be rich. I want everything at the same time. Why is it so hard for my brain to just cool down a little bit?? It's like I'm gonna die tomorrow and I have to do everything today. It's not easy being me I tell ya.
Well, if I don't stop writing now I won't ever stop and I don't think you are THAT interested about all the thoughts I have in my mind right now. Take care y'all! Love ya

I really wanted to hear THIS song at the club yesterday. I LOOVE IT!

Right now T.I is in jail. He carried illegal machineguns in his home and got sentenced for one year and one day. He's been in jail since 19 of May. I love his music and this is his latest single.. Don't forget to remember T.I.

The sun is shining and that makes me happy :). My mother is coming to town today so I'm gonna meet her. It's been a while now.
I've been thinking about maybe going out tomorrow but it all depends on how I feel. But I have been so isolated this last week so I think it would be good if I see some people. I was in town yesterday and fall was in the air. It's a different feeling in my body. there was not much people at all and it's so quiet. No music and not the same people like in the summertime. It's not a good feeling because it makes me feel low. People just don't seem happy. I was at the coffeshop with Bea and it was like we were the only people who were talking. It was really weird.. It seems like I've forgotten how it really is to live on this Island at fall and wintertime. I haven't been in town very much this summer because I've been working and when I finished work I went straight home to rest.
But now I'm sure It's fall.

I've been home for almost a week now and I'm getting a little bored.. But I will go for a long walk today. I need to see something other then my walls.. Yesterday I had movieday with a friend and we watched Blue Lagoon, 1408 and Maid In Manhattan. Unfortunately 1408 was defected so we almost couldn't watch the movie because we got soooo frustrated. Anyways, we had something to do. It was beautiful weather yesterday but somehow I stayed inside and I don't have a clue why that is but it's nice weather today as well so I'm happy about that.

Tonight the VMA's will be shown on swedish television!! I'm looking forward to watch that. I love musical events. I wish that someday I we be at one myself even if it's only to see all the celebrities and the performances. Imagine performing on that stage. It's Huuuge!
Well it won't hurt to dream. Take care y'all!!

Nelly Furtado is releasing her new album and I can't wait to get it! I've heard a little bit from it and I think it's great. A lot of spanish artists is on it.

Today I'm also applying for the courses I wanna go. Exciting!

Nelly tells a little bit about Mi Plan.

I have to say I'm very upset about Kanye's behaviour towards Taylor Swift at the VMA last night. She won her very first award and he steps up to the stage, grabs a mic, interrups her acceptance and tells the audience that Beyonce's video is one of the best videos of all time. I mean.... What's going on with him? I'm surprised by his disrespect towards another artist. That's the kind of behaviour kids have in school. I'm so dissapointed in him because I love his music and now I don't know what to think. Why can't he let her be happy? I think that is just WRONG!! Shame on you Kanye!


                     

Today I found a few more courses I'm gonna apply for. If I don't get lucky and get in to the one I absolutely wanna go at least I have something to move me a little closer to the goal. I KNOW this is what I wanna do and I don't care if it's really hard because if I want it I can make it. Now it's time to learn somethin'!
For the first time in my life, I'm very excited about going to school! Ok I don't know what I'm gonna study yet but I know I will study something that I'm interested in. I think Y'all know what the subject is. It's....Music!

My cold is still here and I'm not leaving home today either. I have a lot of things I can kill time with. Like reading magazines, listening to music, cook and more. I don't really have the urge to watch television. What I hate about this cold is that it's so hard to talk. My throat is swollen and I sound like I'm talking inside a can or something.. Horrible voice. I can't sing either and that's what I hate the most. Anyway I hope if I spoil myself today maby I will get better. From now on I won't ever mention this cold again.

I have something that will make next week go faster. Work. I'm glad I'm going to work because I never really know when I get the chance to make money. I don't have a real job because it's not so easy getting a job here on Gotland. So I take every chance I get. I have to start saving to make my plans come through.
Now I'm gonna take care of myself. I hope you're taking care of yourselves too!!

I give you this song. It will help you relax...

Hi everyone! Today I'm having a lazy day at home. I have a nasty cold and I have to take care of myself even if I don't feel like it. I was supposed to visit grandma' with my Mom today. But when I woke up by the alarm I felt like an elephant.. I decided that I don't wanna risk their health by being selfish. And I know that grandma' wouldn't get very pleased about me showing up in this condition.. So I think  it's best if I isolate myself...

One thing I'm very happy about is that one of the world's best singers is having a COMEBACK!!! Yeah I'm talking about the best, Whitney Houston! I've been waiting for this to happen for a long time and I'm very touched. She have said that she wouldn't do a Comeback unless her daughter approved and she approved! I'm so glad she's clean now. 

Even if she won't ever be as good as she was before she will still be one of the best and I will keep loving her music. I swear I will go and see her if I ever get the opportunity. 

    

This is a song I really like. Rihanna is great in this song.
 

I've had two great weeks with my sister and her lovely son. Now they are back in Texas and I am continuing with the regular stuff. I still have alot on my mind. Tonight I will go to my first real guitarrlesson! The teacher is my sister in law :). I really wanna learn to play the guitarr so I'm very excited. I will borrow a guitar this time because I haven't had the time to bring my mothers wich I'm gonna use in the future. I just have to check that everything is together.. I've been working today after a week off and it felt good to do something else than watching tv. I'm beginning to hate television because there are too many bad shows on it. Even the music channels are getting worse.. Whats happening to the world??? Well, I don't have anything else to say at the moment so stay tuned!


Sis' Denise (at the wedding)


Me (at the wedding)

I'm so happy to see my sister and her son again and it's been real fun spending time with them. Jeremiah is a very smart and happy boy! I will go with them to Stockholm on Monday. Time flies really fast. But I will go visit them some day.

Me and sis' were at a beautiful wedding last saturday! I sang and I have to admit I was very nervous but it turned out just fine. They liked it and that's great!
They looked so beautiful together and their eyes were full of happytears. Congratulations Ziza and Kazeem Balogun! Sis' had flown down from Texas to surprise them on their big day and they were very happy to see her. At first they thought I was two people cuz they got really confused haha! Me and sis' sang "He heals me" by India Arie to them. Sis' loves that song and she really wanted to sing it at the wedding so we practised only two days before the wedding. The food was great and the cake was delicious! thank you!

I am so happy right now. It looks like my man is coming back to me soon after being away for such a long time. Everything looks good and i feel some more hope.