Tomorrow it's a big day for my friend ziza. She's getting married and I will sing at her wedding. I'm a little bit nervous cuz I'm gonna sing three songs. But I'm also excited. I've had so much going on these days and I'm not used to it. I haven't slept much either. My body feels so stiff right now and I think will have to make an appiontment at a massage therapist or something.. Anyway I hope everything will turn out just fine on her big day. Love ya Ziza!
This week I will have so much fun! I'm very pleased with my life right now except for one thing. But I can feel this is the beginning of something great! I'm dreaming everyday that my life will turn out the way I want and I'm alittle bit scared that something bad will happen. Sometimes when everything is right something turns out wrong but I'm wishing that won't happen to me.. I have plans for the future and it feels like I've made up my mind. Life is full of surprises. Even if I can't do it all at once I will do it all sometime and that means I have something left and that's even better. Hope everything will turn out the way I want. The most important thing of all is to not loose faith. Even if life is a bitch sometimes it doesn't mean it will be forever. There is always something good around the corner waiting for the perfect moment to come up. Don'forget that.
This weekend has been nothing but work and I feel it in my legs.. Tomorrow I have something else to do. I will rehearse three songs with the guitarist i've never met. But she seems like a very nice person so I'm sure it will be good. I'm getting a little nervous but that's OK. I know all the song almost perfectly so I'm excited! I am also going to meet some people I'm really looking forward to meet this week and I'm gonna have a really good time! Almost like a vacation! I will keep you updated on that one.
Fall is getting closer and I have alot on my plate. Ideas about how I will use my time. Things to look forward to and that does'nt make me lonely. What I have on my mind right now is learning to play the guitarr and start taking yogaclasses. And like a million of other ideas haha. But I can't do them all at the same time.. I have to do something. I can't just sit on the couch watching TV and let the time just pass me by. I'm gonna LIVE.
Today I've been totally lost and excausted.. I slept to little last night but I had a good reason. I was talking to my angel. I was about to go to dreamland when I got a textmessage from him. I won't be able to talk to him for a month so I just HAD to talk to him last night. Tomorrow Ramadan begins and that means he will work in the nights and sleep in the days. In his country they do that because they can't eat or drink as long as the sun is up for one month. That's haram wich means not allowed according to their religion. I've been at grandmother's house and we watched a great show on TV. It was from 1974 and it was about the musicalfilms made by MGM. They showed alot of dance and musical scenes from the best musicalfilms ever made from 1930 and up. The stars that were shown was Gene Kelly, Judy garland, Fred Astair, Frank sinatra and many more. I like the old films because they were so talented and professional at that time. They almost never make such great musicalfilms anymore.. They were also very well made and everything was so big. Back home I crashed on the couch after taking a shower and eating dinner. Or a VERY late lunch.... Anyway this day has been crazy. Somehow it felt like I left my brain at home in the bed. I was a zombie.. I been doing weird things you do when you haven't slept well at all. Well now I'm gonna continue searching for my brain..
I'm resting my tired legs feeling fresh once again filling my ears with.... That's right, Music! I've been walking around at work with Halo on my brain. I heard it this morning on MTV and that's good cause I like that song. I've startet liking Beyonce more and more after the album I AM. I think this is her best so far. But I really like the songs by Destiny's child. The Halo-video is one of the sweetest videos I've seen because it's about real and happy love. It's about feeling safe with someone and having fun together whatever you are doing. I also love Ego with Kanye West. He's my favorite rapper because he has his own style and he makes original and interesting lyrics about anything. I remember a few years ago in Dublin when me and my sister were practising all his lyrics from "Late Registration". It was so much fun! We wanted to learn all of it because we were going to his concert in Dublin. I still rember much of it. I think lyrics are very important. If the lyrics are bad, the song is bad. But that's just my opinion.
Looking forward to next week. A lot of fun things will happen! I'm glad I have something to look forward to because it keeps me going. I can cope with anything when I know there's something good to come. To me it's important to keep a balance between work and my private life. I'm not that kind of person who's able to work 10 hours a day and have one day off. My family and friends are very important and I need something else to do except for work. My other interests are just as important and I need to make time for them as well. Next week I'll make time to be with family and friends.
This day turned out just how I wanted! I was very happy to see my grandmother again and I gave her a BIG hug! She was doing the laundry. We helped her to carry the laundry back to the apartment and then I decided that I would hoover the floor. She was thankful because she hates to hoover the floor. She can't stand the sound wich I understand. We have the same problem with our ears haha. She's very musical too and she has a beautiful singingvoice. She says she can't sing but that's NOT true. My mom is also a great singer. She was taking opera-lessons and she played the piano when I was little when we lived in Stockholm. Now she sings in a choir. My grandfather ( Mom's dad) was a proffesional jazz-pianist. I guess it's in the blood. I very happy for that.
Yesterday when I got back from work I laid down on the couch to watch CSI. Suddenly I hear a strange sound. It's was like something was dripping and it came from the wall.... I looked and I thought I would die. This HUGE spider was walking across the wall!! The sound came from it's legs when it hit the wallpaper. I didn't know what to do. All I could think of was staying on the couch and not moving. When the people I share the house with got back, one of them hoovered it up. Now I'm only wishing it won't lay any eggs inside the hoovering machine. We will probably burn the whole bag.. I'm listening to some music like I always do when I get the chance. Everything reminds me of my love and I really miss him right now. Soon I will meet Mom at the busstation. I'm looking forward to visit my sweet grandmother. I just hope she isn't angry at me..
I've found a new band that I really like. The script. This song is beautiful and I love his voice. It reminds me a little bit of John Legend. His voice has got the same jazzy style but still souly. And combined with the rocky music it's great!!
Two hours of takin it easy before I take my bike and go to work. It's nice to start working three o'clock in the afternoon because it's more quite in the evening. Since I'm a night-person, I don't have any problems with that. I've had my cup of coffe and I've been on the phone with my adorable mom and I've been makin it more goodlookin in the house. All i need to do is to hit the shower and then I'm ready to go. I always feel better when I've had a little chat with my beloved Mom. She's always there for me and she always have interesting things to say. We have decided to go and visit my grandmother tomorrow. I feel so bad when I haven't seen her in a long time. I take care of old people almost everyday at work but I don't visit my OWN grandmother much at all and that makes me feel very quilty.. I've been so out of energy but now I've decided not to let anything get in the way for me to visit her. She's done so much for me while I grew up even if we've had our little missunderstandings. But tomorrow I'll se her again.
Today I got some new clothes =). I had ordered from a catalogue and now I have some new stuff for the next season. Some new sweaters and basic clothes. I feel like a new person when I throw away all the old clothes and fill the closet with new ones =). I feel so much fresher. Tonight I've been talking to my love. We're having a hard time waiting and waiting.. But I am happy when I see his face on the webcam and I see his beautiful smile <3 Tomorrow I will work in the evening and that is niice cause that means I can sleep 'til I wake up! Yey! And I'm really looking forward to the weekend cause then I'm free again. I hope there will be sunny weather. Maybe I get the opportunity to jump into the water one more time this summer! That's all for now. It's late and I have to hit my pillow.
I am so proud of myself! I know how to design my blogg now. I made it look much better but I'm not quite finished yet. I'm happy to be able to add a video and that's a big step. Now I can share my musical interest with you! On the video below you can watch one of my favorite artists singing one of my favorite songs wich came out when I was 14 yrs old. I love that album because the musical style is not like any other I've heard so far. I guess that's why I bought it. I really like her as an artist because she isn't trying to copy anyone. She does what she wanna do. Her next album, "Mi Plan" will be in spanish only. I'm looking forward to that.
I have alot on my mind and it almost makes me dizzy. There's so much I wanna do. Time runs so fast and I can't believe 4 yrs can go bye so quickly. I'm reminiscing on two thousand and six. It feels like yesterday..
Listening to the music I always listened to back then.. The Loose album by Nelly Furtado. It's gone 9 years since I was humming all of her songs from the Whoa, Nelly! album..
Anyway I don't want to think about it to much.
I just wish my life won't go bye too quickly cause I don't feel like getting old just yet. It's really scary.
I'm gonna apply for several courses beginning next spring. I'm very excited about learning again. I've had my three yrs break from school and now is the time to start planning for the future. I wanna accomplish something and I believe I can do it. If I don't make it at least i tried and that's worth all of the struggling. No one can touch me when it comes to my dreams. Hopefully I will get the chance to do what I really wanna do and what makes me happy. Fingers crossed!!!
I just watched a great movie called "Final Call". This movie made me feel all the emotions.. Anger, frustration,excitement, sympathy,love,sadness,happiness and so on..
It felt so real and I got so frustrated because of all the stupid people who just couldn't understand what was happening...
I can't find the words to explain what I was feeling.. But I couldn't be quite. How come I think I can affect the way the characters in a movie think? That explains how a brain is built. When u see something the brain thinks it's real. Some people can control it but not me.. That's why I don't watch horror movies. It would destroy me.. Im a very sensitive and sympathetic person...
But that doesn't change my impression of this movie. It realy touched me. And I liked it. There's only one word for it. Adrenaline.
I made it! I made It through the last days at work before my three days of freedom. I almost thought I would collapse.. But i didn't and now I gonna have a fantastic time and I will enjoy every minute of it! I will spend as much time outside as I can. I will bathe in the sun and I will swim in the ocean and I will laugh and I will see more than I have seen In a very long time.
Today I got my hair fixed at Ziza's salon. I look like a star and it feels goooood.
The only bad thing is that I'm soooo tired and I probably need to take a nap. So I'll stop writing now..zzzzzzzzzzzzz
I have two more days at work and then I have three days off! I'm really looking forward to it because right now I feel like I haven't got a chance to relax.
In the weekend me and some friends have planned to go somewhere on the countryside where we don't usually go. And we're gonna have a swim in the ocean. At this point I don't care if it's cold because I just HAVE to feel the water this year. Last year I didn't go for a swim ONCE. I only wen't to the beach to lay in the sun.
Today it's incredible weather. Somehow it's always good weather when I have to work and when I'm free the clouds just have too cover the sky. I wonder why that is... Is someone playing a trick on me? Anyway, I wish I will have more luck this time.
I got so mad this morning beacause i wrote a note and I wanted to add a picture, but when I added the picture the note dissapeared... So now I'm writing a new note. I've had a good day. I went with my friend to the coffeshop "Rosas" and had a coffee and a piece of delicious pie with gorgonzola and ham. We sat outside on the backyard where it was nice and laidback. I don't go there much but it was better than I had expected. Mom called me up this morning and invited me to a barbecue at her place on the countryside and ofcourse I sad yes. I love barbecues. My mom lives in a very quite place with beautiful surroundings. A place I go when I wanna calm down. I will probably go there this weekend and maybe take a swim in the ocean too :). If I do it will be my first time this year.
Right now I'm relaxing after a busy day doin' laundry, ironing and folding. There's nobody here but me myself and I. But I don't feel bad about that. That's exactly how I want it after a long day at work. I work at a place where old people live and I take care of them and help them with whatever they need help with. Today I had my laundry-day. It was quite nice doin' something else this time. But I can't deny I got sick of it after a few hours. The weather was incredible, I couldn't wish for better, and there I was... Isolated in a boring room with noises everywhere. And the noises didn't go away just because I put on the radio. Even the radio made horrible noises because of the bad reception. How I tried and tried to fix it over and over again... The radio played crapmusic anyway..
I'm glad I have a lot of great music that I can play when I'm back home. It really makes me feel good again and all the frustration just goes away.. Tomorrow it BETTER be nice weather beacuse then there ain't nothing I need to do or think about. Then it's just me.
I feel like a superwoman right now but an exhausted one... I woke up by sunrise and took a long walk to work. I've been doing so much that I almost feel like I'm a machine or something.. When I got home i didn't stop behaving like a machine. No, I had A LOT to do at home as well. I almost forget taking care of myself and suddenly I remember I haven't done the laundry or washed the dishes for like a week... Well, I try to keep it clean as often as I can. Right now I just feel like I have alot on my mind and can't stay in the present. My mind is very concentrated on the future.. There's a lot of things I wanna do and I'm figuring out a way to make it real.
